Ayn Rand on Getting Scared in the Learning Process
To learn a musical instrument is to know failure. Each and every practice, if it’s a good one, we try and fail over and over again. This is just part of the game. That’s why it’s called “practice”.
Many times, we don’t even know what we don’t know. We’re not yet aware of what “could be”, so it’s not an issue. As we progress in our music, we find more and more that we don’t know. Every time we get to the top of one mountain, we see more and bigger ones before us.
There is a period of time between discovering what we don’t know, and the point where we know it (or at least how we’ll go about looking for the answer). It’s in this interval – this no-man’s land of confusion and conscious ignorance, where we know we don’t know – that we face fear and uncertainty.
Here, we don’t know what the best next move is. We don’t know what to try. We may not even know what to research or who to ask to get started. We’re just “at a loss”.
This is where we must be courageous. We only need courage in scary places. That’s what makes it hard.
In our music, in our daily practice, growth happens as a result of challenge. We learn most when we ride the razor’s edge between hard and too hard.
When something is too hard, the answer is simplify. When we’re in the dark, we can feel around for one little bit that we can work on. And from there, we may find another little bit. Eventually, things become clearer and we understand what’s needed.
But to work through this process, we must embrace the unknown. We must become comfortable being uncomfortable. We must form habit of courage and a willingness to experiment until something seems promising.
In this way, inch by inch, we conquer first one unknown, then another. Until eventually, discovering new unknowns moves from bringing fear to inviting exhilaration.
“If you don’t know, the thing to do is not to get scared, but to learn.”